Originally Posted by James90

DENIAL

I put those words first because I was in DENIAL, I cant ever drink again.

Long story short I got drunk and smashed my whole flat/apartment up.

Underlying issues for sure ... But one of those issues I am an alcoholic.

I suffer from depression, and recently I've been having some nostalgia ( not drink related) just childhood, friends, old friends, good times, dad times .

It got me good, I consider my self a mentally strong person, stronger than most. But I can't fight alcoholism, as much as I want to. I've tried and failed for 8 years now , I'm only 30.

I really need help

James.