I have several holes in my walls from a year ago. I don't remember why I was punching holes. I also may have thrown a plate of food against the wall. I was blackout drunk. I must have been venting pent up anger, which only surfaces after too much to drink.
I am currently coming up on 2 weeks sober and have no feelings of anger whatsoever. Alcohol is terrible for mental health and only exacerbates any pre-existing conditions like depression and anxiety. Don't fret too much about trashing the apartment. It can be cleaned. Happens to the best of us.