Originally Posted by
James90 
DENIAL
I put those words first because I was in DENIAL, I cant ever drink again.
Long story short I got drunk and smashed my whole flat/apartment up.
Underlying issues for sure ... But one of those issues I am an alcoholic.
I suffer from depression, and recently I've been having some nostalgia ( not drink related) just childhood, friends, old friends, good times, dad times .
It got me good, I consider my self a mentally strong person, stronger than most. But I can't fight alcoholism, as much as I want to. I've tried and failed for 8 years now , I'm only 30.
I really need help
James.
Someone who claims to be mentally stronger than most doesn't get sloshed and destroy their home.
Not trying to be a jerk, but denial, in all caps, was in your first sentence. None of us are unique in this whole thing... just a bunch of drunks.
Welcome back though, brother. You should join us in the Class of June 2020 thread.
I came back here recently too after a horrific bender. I can relate, as all of us can.