I am in a Similar situation, Puckluck. I go on 2-3 week benders, sober up for a week or two, then eventually go into another bender. I've lost everything pretty much. I am fortunate that my family is somewhat wealthy and money is no issue. But I am a mess. Just returned 100 empty beer cans for the deposit. I am on Day 7 sober. You have to start somewhere. The first week is gonna be rough, but you have to detox sometime.