Thank you for the replies everyone.
Maybe I really am that low bottom drunk (that never thought he was but is) and this is exactly what I need to change my life for once.
I've been to 4 inpatient treatment centers in various states when I was employed and had insurance. Ran away from all but 2. Last place was world class and I actually completed 90 days there and was sober for almost 8 months.
I made a horrible decision to leave sober living and come home. Been a real downward spiral since then...
