Not doing so well
I'm coming off a 2 week bender. That's pretty much what my drinking has been like the last 2 years. Go on a soul crushing bender for weeks, get sick, sober up a few days and right back at it.
I was sober yesterday only because I was so violently ill I literally could not pick up. Just threw up for 10 straight hours. Last night I could not sleep so I just laid in bed in a pool of sweat.
This morning I finally ate something and immediately took a shot of vodka just to not feel withdrawals.
My life is pure hell. Took 15 years, but I have absolutely nothing left. Vehicle was my last personal possession, but I had to sell it before it was repo'd.
In my mid 30s and I'm living upstairs at my parents. Absolutely not functional. No friends. I don't know where to go from here. Almost never leave my room which has bottles of cheap vodka hidden all over. Haven't changed my clothes or showered or anything in 2 weeks.
Can't stand to look in the mirror because all I see is a slithering creature I dont recognize.