I do still think about alcohol daily. Not necessarily that I want it but how it was there - all the time, every day. I have a feeling that those thoughts will never totally go away. I know it's going to be a lifelong struggle. I was just so surprised that the thought that I would never drink again even entered my mind. I will still only live this journey one day at a time, it has worked well so far!
I have attempted to stop drinking many times and always thought I could go back to 'social' drinking after a while. I think until I admitted to myself that I could NOT drink again, that I'm an alcoholic, I just couldn't do it. I still have a long way to go and lots of steps to take but glad to be on this path.