Originally Posted by
Tacotuesday 
Ultimately though I don’t think we’re building or improving anything in our marriage b/c none of this is what a healthy relationship looks like. And I don’t know if any of this will be helpful long term. But it’s a lot easier to live with day to day than it was before. Good luck to you.
I think maybe this is all I can hope for. I know it seems crazy but I feel like I just want to be in a happier daily space while I wait for the other shoe to drop. Or maybe I can never be happy if I feel like the rug may be pulled out from under me at any moment.