Yeah I know it's stupid dizzyj. It's like an addiction I guess. I just feel compelled to go back time and time again. I want to stop because the stress and drama is just too much. The good times are really great tho and when she's sober and things are calm and we're cuddling on the couch watching tv on a quiet night, it's almost heaven. I don't need much to make me happy and I don't think a sober GF is too much to ask.