Extreme dryness, burning?
So I am new here and this is my first post! I have been binge drinking for 8 years on and off. I have gone through the same withdrawals, knowing how absolutely awful they are, and I am currently beating myself completely up that I am here again after all the progress I made and how much everyone kept saying how great I looked, after 8 months of sobriety. I do believe work stress, no AA meetings and anxiety caused from everything going on with this corona situation, I relapsed, took a drink thinking I could stop tomorrow. I couldn't. It started out just a little drinking before work, and not doing anything after work. Then it became almost every day taking three shots of rum before work, going during lunch to get a pint of rum, keeping it in my purse, drinking on the pint in the bathroom, and then drinking some more at home. I was not even eating, or barely. The embarrassment of drinking again after so long, I feel like such a failure after the huge amount of progress I made.
My skin looks awful. Since quitting a couple days ago it feels like it burn in certain places, gets extremely flaky around the mouth area, and then there are little tiny bumps all over my face. It also looks a little rubbery in certain areas around my nose, but that could be in my own mind. I can barely keep anything on my face to relieve the dryness because it just soaks everything up very quickly. When I try to put lipstick on it also seems to be disappearing due to the fact that my lips are so dry. Have any of you had these severe kind of symptoms with your face? I have seen things about itchiness, which I am grateful, I am not dealing with (yet), but not so much about what feels like a light burning around the mouth.. Anyone know why this would happen AFTER you stop drinking? During the time I was drinking, I don't think it looked this bad. Its always right AFTER my skin gets bad.
Tomorrow everyone will see something is wrong, and it just feels so embarrassing. I guess my one saving grace is the requirement of a facemask at work. However My eyes look so bloodshot. Not open; puffy and low as if I'm high. Or sick. The eye dryness makes me feel disoriented. I am curious why they get MORE red when you stop.
I am so happy to be here. I cannot let this happen again.