Hi and welcome Win
I always knew if I had the opportunity I would likely drink everyday.
Yeah and that became a self fulfilling prophecy when I was 'retired' due to ill health.
I eventually stopped because I didn't want to die that way.
I'm still home, and ironically as isolated as I was then thanks to COVID19- but I don;t drink over it and I haven't for 13 years.
This place has a lot to do with my enduring recovery, Read around, post as much as you like - see what other people are doing to stay sober.
You can do this
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