FOMO and you’re an alcoholic.
That’s what it comes down to.
If you go you know you’ll drink - you’ve admitted as much. Therefore if you go it means you want to drink. Fair enough.
But if you go then please don’t come back and say you ‘slipped’ because you didn’t slip. You will have chosen to drink so own it upon your return in the way you’ll have to own the fact that selfishness (we all know alcoholism is DEEPLY selfish) took precedence over your own mother’s health.
Look - I don’t know you and I’m only 16 days in. I have been on here so many times and tried and tried again. When I drink I never ‘slip’. I meant it. I wanted to drink. I own it, yet feel the requisite shame for what it is.
I’m sorry for the tougher message than most are giving but it’s because I don’t want you to drink. I don’t want any of us here to drink. I don’t want to drink. So I’m saying it as we both really know it is. If you go then you want and intend to drink and you know that 100% too.
So. Do you want to go back to drinking?
Your choice.