You may have a vision of yourself enjoying nature, being able to hike and hang out with your friend.
But give yourself the gift of looking at what it could really look like, being very drunk and sick from drinking, deciding you just have to go home but now too afraid to bring the virus back to your mom. And, your mom being all alone while you're gone. And very possibly getting the virus while you're there.
It's no fun to be alone or even alone with your mom for weeks on end. You have lots of company, though. So many people in the world are doing exactly that.
I hope you'll stay put and use this time to build on your recovery.