Hi Lulu
I got sober at age 46, that was 12 years ago. I have never looked back. It hasn't always been easy. Many, many days it has been boring and lonely. But still I never looked back.
NEVER, EVER again in my life did I want to wake up in a panic wondering what the hell I did the night before , what stories I would have to make up, and eventually what bridges had I burned. I HATE that feeling. So the cravings, boring, lonely days are tolerable to ever feeling like that again.
My advice- many people may say you picked a bad time to quit (in the middle of a pandemic) but for an alcholic- no time is a good time. Stick with it and read every post you can. There are a lot of wise people here and they can help. Good luck.