Hi all,
First thank you for all your reply's , whether they were the harsh truth or a softer version of the truth , I appreciate that you all took the time to respond to me.
Today is the day xabf is supposed to pay me. I have not reached out and will not. I have done a lot of soul searching this last week , speaking with my sponsor , reading literature and just general thinking.
I am both terrified xabf will and wont reach out and pay me.
but .. I have decided that whatever xabf does is between him and God or his conscious. I have no control and my part is between God and myself ( acceptance that xabf choices are not my burden nor can I will him to do what is right ) it does not reflect who I am as a person.
Unfortunately I cannot block xabf as there is another party involved in this whole money debacle and I have to give xabf the opportunity to make this debt right before they are willing to help and pay me what he owes me.
Wish me luck staying in peace today,!