((((Manta))))
I’m so glad you’re here with us x
My relapses got worse. Although I wasn’t blacking out, each time I drank I was straight back to drinking steadily, every moment I could, hiding bottles everywhere, including in my bag and in my car
so I wouldn’t run out and so I could have a sneaky drink anywhere, anytime. Sucked back down the rabbit hole into drinking and depression. I don’t want to go back there again . Whenever I feel tempted to drink, I think about how depressed I was after my last weekend of drinking all weekend. Ugggh. Nope. I don’t ever want to go back there.
I just keep telling myself I will not drink today.
One day at a time.