35 days is a drop in the ocean. I am 4 months out and still have anger issues regarding what happened to me. I think you are expecting too much of yourself to expect forgiveness in 35 days. There's no point rushing it, forgiveness will come with time.
I had a look through your previous posts, he is both an alcoholic and a gambler right? He tried reaching out to you which could mean a number of things, but the moot point is, is this a relationship that you want. Try to put the onus back on you. It takes practice believe me but I can say from my own experience I feel a lot better for practicing this more in my life.