People who aren't alcoholics don't get the same thing from drinking we do. Before I was an alcoholic getting drunk meant getting sick. They can't function with that much alcohol in their system. Drunkenness is not a good feeling unless your body has adapted to it. So really your not wishing for what you think you are. If you just stay clear long enough and put in the work to readjust your perspective you'll be just as good as any normal person. "When it comes to alcohol, it's just not worth it."