Your food choices are fascinating! Food has never been a salient substance for me. A whole realm of pleasure missing from my life. But I exploited the heck out of the other available realms
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Cow 
I may have instead gone on a bit of a walkabout with coffee and chocolate and wine ...oh my! Soooo easy to slide back into it, soooo hard to pull out.
((Cow)) I get it. I encourage you not to do that again. Thoughts of drinking are bubbling up for me, too. I associate severe isolation with my active alcoholism, so methinks I should be drunk now.
Anyway, I'm not drinking, & hope none of us are.
One technique developed after a foray into relapse -- I built a little iron box in my brain with no door or hinges, with room for thoughts of drinking to bounce off the walls, but not to develop into imaginings or plans, or communicate with the rest of me. Works ok.