Do you know those times when the ugly filling wears off? You forget how horrible you felt the next day when you had a hangover. It’s been two weeks and as I get bored or I don’t know what it is. The disease? I struggle with why don’t I just go to the liquor store and just get a beer there’s nothing wrong with it I’m at home watching movies what can I hurt? I keep trying to remind myself I’ll regret it tomorrow because I’ll be gambling will it just be one and if it is OK I got lucky this one time. Is it always gonna be like this? I hate this feeling I hate feeling broken and weak. What do I have to prove to anyone? Maybe I really am just like my dad I think all these years I’ve always tried to control the alcohol so I can prove I’m not like my dad broken and an alcoholic. Thoughts anyone?