Originally Posted by
tambdy 
Been in many situations where I previously would have drank, managed not too so far. With the stress of this corona virus I have thought about it and not did it.
Your right a lot of it is down to our brains and re wiring. I seem to have gotten so lazy since I have stopped, I can't get any motivation to do anything.
I have got it into my head that if I drink it will kill me as I was a heavy drinker thus is not a bad thing.
Tambdy,
The lack or motivation/energy is something I found was mental as well.
When I drank I was so lazy. Being drunk then hungover. Trying to exert myself during those times would cause my heart to race and my bp to spike so hard i could feel the veins flexing in my temples.
But, what I quickly found out, pretty much from day 1 clean is that I had a lot more energy than I felt like I had.
Maybe it was because I was used to never having any energy.
I was so weak when i first quit that I would get light headed bending over to pick up my sock. Doing yard work was limited to about 15 minutes.
But, it was better than when I was drinking.
I have kept on testing my stamina since those early days and obviously i am stronger. I won't go on to tell stories, because it sounds too braggy.
I will just repeat this....My body had way more energy than my brain thought. I only needed to try.
Finally, when I tried to push myself I got a natural high. The same high I got while drinking minus all the slurring, stumbling, and hang overs.
Endorphins, dopamine, and good adrenaline.
Thanks for the therapy. It gave me a little dopamine typing this out.
Love y'all.