Stressed out-need to detach-HOW???
Well, my alcoholic girlfriend called me a few minutes ago. She was in a cheerful mood. We talked about "what such an honest person she was". Generally she is I have to admit. She just doesn't tell the whole truth, especially about where she goes and boozes it up for 2 hours. The conversation went really well but for the past hour, I have felt incredibly stressed out.
I started creating these make-up fantasies. I weave these elaborate scenarios about how it's all going to be ok and she's finally going to see the light. I know this is stupid and I know I do it to myself. I feel so desperately lonely right now. I want to detach and be rid of her sometimes. WHY AM I DOING THIS OVER THIS GIRL????? I'm just in a dark place right now and really unhappy.