Drinking and humiliating behavior go hand in hand, Tinkerbeau. We have all been there, and I'm glad that is no longer part of my existence. I get it about thinking we can drink again--I've done that too, after 15 years of sobriety, so it can hit you any time-we must always be extra-vigilant. After over 4 years of sobriety I was feeling a bit triggered by airports and traveling last week and posted to SR while waiting for a flight. I didn't feel I was in any real danger of relapse, but I'd felt a bit uneasy and couldn't figure out why until I realized it was the idea of airports and how nice to grab a couple of craft beers, and then inflight maybe one or two more....nope, no way. It was nice to have my SR family to connect with, and I hope next time there is temptation that you bring it here first. Wishing you all the best-you can do this.