Originally Posted by
Lostndestroyed 
I just thought of this, and it really put a realization of it all for me - "His master is the drug. And it will do with him what it wants."
I went and talked with him last night... he knows my boundary, about sleeping with anyone else, while he's pseudo-with me, or a relationship, whatever it may be... he kept saying over n over again, but it didn't happen... my response was, only because she said no...
tonight, he is at a party, with her... because she invited him, and it will have his beloved drug...
I have to keep in mind, tho he may say all these sweet things to me, his drug, and whoever he gets it from, will always take top spot...
So do you think he doesn't have agency in all of this? Yes, he's an addict, and yes, he'll do whatever is necessary to maintain the feeling of being under the influence. But remember, he's making that choice. Just as he's choosing to be with someone other than you.
Perhaps now is a good time to ask yourself if this is how you want to spend your life, yearning for a man who chooses himself time after time.