You seem unwilling to do work you consider beneath you. That's too bad.
Just getting a job of any sort would be a start back into the world.
I hope you choose to do that instead of another pity party which only hurts you.
Lots of people have begun again with far less than you.
I believe you are an intelligent and capable person with excellent communication skills who has much to offer--but you are also your own worst enemy.
Quit fighting yourself and blaming the world. It will only keep you stuck TWTOM.