Ophelia, I am sorry you are going through this and hope you can use your recovery skills...and/or counseling to help you get through it.
Tell yourself "I am stronger, wiser and no longer a victim. I CAN and will protect myself and surround myself with support." Repeat until you believe it.
I am glad you are able to talk about this. Don't stuff it, shared is aired and will help you keep it in perspective.
I am cheering you on. You deserve a happy life.
Hugs