Originally Posted by
MesaMan 
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JdA ~
Sobriety is internalized, rigorous dedication at first that can mature into Alcohol becoming meaningless as innumerable activities are undertaken while Sober. You can't lust after Alcohol you no longer want. Another 'Truth' I examined, and rejected: that I forever have to be some Moth circling a Flame [Alcohol] while engaging in ornate Avoidance Mechanisms to prevent Relapse.
Thank you for your thorough and thought provoking response. I will look further into the links prescribed. I appreciate the look into being introverted vs extroverted. In retrospect that wasnt something I considered about myself and meetings. I am a private person and AA was sucking that out of me. That can be mentally draining! At one meeting I compared AA to giant threshold that opens up to world of sobriety that I felt I needed to explore. It seems, a this time, it was the right decision to go and explore outside the rooms.