Hi mates!
I like me some reality TV too. However, like Suze, I've cut out alot of the stuff I used to watch. Not only because of alcohol, but honestly the message some of these shows and movies send is pretty skewed and I'm finding the new me less tolerant of it. The little I watch, though, can be triggering.
Which brings me to what you said, db, about wanting to be able to drink like non-addicts... There-in lies the key... Why should we even want that???? I don't want to drink at all. Not anymore. Given the choice between being a normie and a teetotaler from day one, I'd go with the latter. I'm slowly discovering now what a lie alcohol is in our lives.
I really pray I never relapse, lol. I think I'd hate myself knowing what I know now.
Having said that, I do, out of habit mostly, still miss it from time to time.