It has been so gratifying to read your thread mikoss. You are doing so well.
I can relate to the feelings of sadness you describe, but figure these are feelings that need to be processed, and are real. From the sadness comes the learning. It's what I'm finding for myself, now.
Please ignore what you friend said about SR just being words. Maybe he's a caveman and does not yet appreciate the power of language and ideas. Hang with more intelligent people.
I'm 59 days today mikoss, and like you no matter what, intend to feel the feelings and not pick up.
We are finding an authentic way to live now, even though difficult to begin.