Alone and Ashamed on my Couch
I found this website a few days ago, Tuesday Feb 4th 2020 after waking up from a full day of drinking the day before. I was hungover, full of self-hatred, and terrified of the husband and father I was turning in to. It had been 12 years of heavy drinking, secretly.
I wanted to anonymously admit to someone - anyone - that I had a drinking problem, though I had admitted it to myself, hundreds of times, for years. I had told no one else in my circle of family, friends, or church. I decided to just get on the internet and do a search for "anonymous admission of addiction" and one of the first links was from a member on this site doing just that -- admitting that he/she had a problem.
After posting on this site, I now feel that I am held accountable to more than just myself, and owe I it to the members of this site to continue posting daily about my struggles and my success (so far).