It has taken the person I might have been. I'll never know who that was now. She's still there somewhere in the darkness because I can hear her sometimes. Nevertheless, I'm going to try to be the best person I can be with what I still have - and I there may be good surprises along the way. If I drink, then the end will be slow and painful and that won't be a surprise at all (really don't want to work to get that!).