Thank you... so I guess this is somewhat normal for a not so normal situation. I will make an appt. with my Dr. and there is a councellor I like who I should see again. I have blocked his number but unfortunately it goes to voice mail. It won't ring just sends him to voicemail. I usually delete before I listen but sometimes I don't then I start to believe I really am a loser and a ****. I wish my phone would block entirely. I guess I could change my number but I run a business and it would be so difficult. I know deep down it's not me... I think he projects what he hates about himself onto me.... when I feel weak is when I doubt myself. When I fight with my teenage son I get very weak. My EXABF has done some damage to me and I need to undo it. If I get one more message I will go to the police. I have some of the crap he sent me saved for this purpose. I cannot let him control me.