After years of fighting to keep my drinking under control, but only seeing it progressively getting worse, I entered an accelerating downward spiral and started doing more and more stupid drinking things that made me feel frustrated and ashamed. I started going through counselors, went to AA, where I accepted total abstinence, fought cravings for a few days, sorted though an abundance of advice, took what made sense, and told my AV to ****off. That was 24 years ago as of the 3rd of January this month.
How about you Hawking? What got you into recovery?