Hard to say why my bottom was actually my bottom. I was drinking daily, sometimes not even feeling drunk after one of those big bottles of wine. On several occasions, I dropped my daughter off at daycare (at 7 am) and anxiously waited for the liquor store to open....on days that I was supposed to be at work. The lies, the deceipt, the manipulation. It was all so tiring. On one of these days after dropping her off, I picked up my wine and after a few hours decided to pick up the phone and schedule my inpatient detox for that night. It was the best decision, albeit drunk, that I ever made. Now, at nearly a year and a half sober, life is 100 times better.
Staying sober has been tough at times, but I always play the tape forward. I try to exercise daily and eat healthy. I spend quality time with family and friends and my work now sees me as a reliable employee. I check into SR often, usually daily.
Waking up sober is still the best feeling in the world 🙂