Initially it was for my kids, to be honest.
I couldn't bare the thought of my 3 Daughter's and Son being raised by a step dad. Knowing my wife had picked out some real doozies, a drug dealer and a convicted bank robber, in the past, then me, so I had no faith that she was going to pick a winner next time, so it had to be done.
I had to get sober because stuck under a pile of alcoholic rubble was a decent father, husband, son and friend.
So I stopped running around in circles at the foot of the mountain and begun the climb.
I'd gotten past the afraid of dieing stage, it seemed like a peaceful option, but it would still have left the kids devastated and faced with the step dad problem, so here I am 👍😎
And I'm now glad to be alive and fulfilling my potential, through the grace of a God, I was convinced did not exist.
Funny how life goes 😂