2020......I think it is great that you are so willing to educate yourself....as well as being motivated to do self examination.....
I know that you will reap great personal rewards from this....
I do believe that Knowledge is Power.....
I have been a member of this forum for a long time...and, I still learn, all the time from reading and participating, here....
I hope you know about the "Classic Reading" section, which is in the stickies...just above the threads, on the main page....?
Having an open mind and being willing to make change are such vital traits!