Mera, I think you could take a deep breath and look at what you can do during the next year to help things work in your favour. Clearly you are on track with your sobriety and seeing a therapist. Trying to remain calm and focused during meetings and not appearing 'cold' seems difficult. I agree with the comment that you blame being in Italy for your problems but I know you are doing your best to make things work. I know you've done volunteer work there and helped out your neighbours, but I think you feel stuck there because of your ex and your children. Maybe your therapist could offer advice about that?
Do look at the positives and how well you are doing right now. Look at this year as a time to grow and move forward and work on getting custody of your boys.