Hi Mera
I don't speak Italian and I'm m not a psychologist but it seems to me your future does not hinge on this one report.
You have a year to consistently present yourself as a kind considerate and determined woman, breaking free of her past and presenting her credentials as an appropriate person for custody.
Not drinking will aid that process no end
I think you'll be amazed at the difference a year can make - and so I hope will the judges lawyers and who ever else is hearing this case.
Its natural I think to catastrophise when this is so important to you - it looks like a mountain and you fear an unfavorable outcome - but show them the real Mera - living in recovery and loving it, growing as a person every day.
Any half decent judge cannot fail to take that into consideration.
Things can and will be ok
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