You have to want sobriety a little bit More than you want to indulge your body and hurt it (alcohol hurts our bodies). It's a choice.
Sobriety isn't easy for alcoholics. It's our security blanket. It keeps us "safe" in our minds.....
Once we stop drinking, we may have to just do some actions to help us to stay stopped.
You can have sobriety, if you want it badly enough. Don't wait until something horrible happens!