Thank you so very much for your replies that have been more than helpful and made me feel like I'm not crazy and I can do this...today is day 1 of not smoking I would have had one by now but I'm just keeping an open mind for the day and just ride with it instead of panicking and fighting the cravings..it's quite nice though as usually my av would be going mad by now but I've replaced her with a voice that keeps telling me I can do this and life doesn't have to be this hard anymore....I know I've got a lot of work today but feeling in control and positive on my day 1 xxx