I am living in Day 57 after a 30-year drinking career Cityboy. I know precisely how you feel. As daunting as it all seems, it really just happens a day at a time. You won't believe what a gift you are giving yourself. 57 days in I am calm, my head is so quiet, I feel liberated from alcohol, and I never want to drink again. I had drank myself pretty far down the road towards permanent damage and death. Other than my love for my daughters, there is only one certainty that I know of - if I can recover and be healthy ANYBODY can do the same thing. I am glad you are here Cityboy.