Checking in day 12. I had a rough evening yesterday with ruminating thoughts about work, sadness that my brain can make me plenty miserable and OMG I can't even douse those feelings away. I know learning to cope with emotions is essential, the only way through. Journaling has helped in the past, a brain dump on paper. I need to do this soon ... like today.
Last night spent some time reading posts from folks celebrating big anniversaries, ie 6, 12 years. The early weeks or months are worth getting past they ALL say. Right now I'm trusting them, to stick this out. The AV is telling me that "those" people are stronger than me; they are different. All I know is that the AV has only "one solution" for everything. One size fits all, guaranteed. I know this is a massive lie, like putting a bandaid on a festering wound.
It's time to discover new ways of coping that will lead to a more content and richer, wider life. Just keep swimming everyone.