Thanks I appreciate the suggestions. I guess part of what I am confused about is that my friend said the 1st step I am doing is too much for me right now. She said it is to intense and should wait until my 4th step. She said the one I am doing is even more intense than the N/A one. I donno. She's afraid it's too much and I might drink over it. I know it has brought a lot of tension up for me and I have had cravings but I share about them in the meetings and keep going to a meeting everyday and I haven't drank over it. I don't know what to think... I want to make sure I don't leave any cracks but don't want to end up drinking over it.. hmmm I am confused I guess. I have been sober since Nov 9th which is almost 30 days if that makes a diffence in what I am doing.