I went to therapy. I told my therapist that it is time. I am ready to stop drinking. I am fragile. I can not do this alone. I want to be better. Started drinking at age 12. I can still remember that first night like it was yesterday. 30 years later, here I am doing the same thing. Still. How frustrating and sad. I need to be sober. There is no alternative. I hope and pray for strenght.