Originally Posted by
thomas11 
I sense a case of sabotage Exactly and guilty as charged. I ruin everything good.
"........finally content with a past I regret..............."
"....................peace with myself........................"
Those are just a few lines from my 2019 anthem song,
"I'm Moving On" by Rascal Flatts. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fz1N8W8phec
You may feel like peace with others is a ways off ....but you can and perhaps NEED to make peace with yourself FIRST.
".....finally content with a past I regret..........." doesn't mean I have NO regrets.....but for myself it has been a matter of accepting I simply cannot change the past..
.[."it stays where it lays, for now".]....but I CAN leave the past and put some things to rest that might be plaguing me. No one holds me prisoner to the past moreso than myself! Others probably forgive me better than I forgive myself!
Some people and some things? Maybe I just can't be around them anymore. Maybe it's just not productive and can even be destructive. That doesn't mean you are a coward because of avoidance. It means you are using discernment/wisdom.