LilyLady - I'm so glad you've made the decision to eliminate it from your life.
It took me a long time to acknowledge that it was never going to be fun, entertaining, or relaxing again. I had counted on it to help me be happy & carefree - and in the end, no amount I drank gave me the results I craved. So I ramped up my drinking - and of course it led to chaos.
You can do it, Lily. Congrats on Day 1.