Well, we had lunch together and he is in good spirits and has a good attitude. I am confident it will be a good night. He brought home his Christmas bonus and gave it to me and told me to use if for Christmas gifts...... wow I was shocked.
All seemed well, BUT that feeling, that dark feeling deep in my gut just doesn't go away. I have accepted it is just going to be there until he walks through the door tonigh and let it go at that.
I am doing much better than I thought I would, I am proud of me, right now, it isn't 5 and I am not home alone YET!
He did make plans to go do some shopping with me this evening when he gets home so I know his intentions are very good.
Thank you all for your prayers it has kept me going today.