Hi Surfbee! I'm glad you posted, I have been wondering how you and baby are getting on!
As dandylion said, the practical help alone is really helpful for you and of course the bonding can't hurt!
I completely understand you wanting a place of your own with your Son, that would no doubt be ideal and I hope you get that when you can/are ready.
On a more? practical level, I was just thinking, you know how people can be involved with an alcoholic and say, I wish I knew then what I knew now. I don't know if you have already researched Adult Children of Alcoholics but it certainly can't hurt to pick up a book or two or even just google some stuff, lots of good information there. It's just a way to be aware and run interference? Not that the baby cares just yet lol