I feel like I could have wrote this post...bored depressed want to hang with friends and have a few...I just passed 8 months sober...I have to learn how to live sober...I go to Aa meetings read the posts here on s.b. and got the courage to ask another man to be my sponser...there are grey days and some sunny ones also...read the doctors opinion in a.a big book explains a lot...I no I can't drink like normal people...black outs cocaine etc.etc...I'm highly functional in the work place...paid mortgages child support bills no debts...don't no if I have that GENE or what...but I'm honest with myself and no i can't drink... I have an allergy...lots of great speakers on YouTube or Xa speakers.com...lets do this sober journey together..we have to learn how to live sober....Keep posting...