Sorry about that,

i did various activities outside of work. Video games, worked on my music(piano and guitar) exercise. I felt great, but the amount on new energy I had only increased anxiety about how little I recognized myself and the feeling of feeling better felt subpar because it was like being a very cleared-headed and healthy depressed person. Instead of feeling happy I just became more self aware of how much I hate myself. Like drinking a cup of coffee to better focus on the negative. Atleast when I drink myself into oblivion I can’t judge myself. Idk maybe it’s deeper than alcohol.